So Zack and I are not at the best right now. Its not that we are fighting. We just… arent completely in sync. He doesnt deal well with us being broke. Not that I do, I just know that there isnt much other option. I told him that if he can find a better option out there, if there is something some where that will make him happy then by all means he should go out there and find it or do it, or whatever it is. I dont want to imagine my world with out him, but if hes not happy then I have to let him go find something else. I dont even know whats going on inside his head. This my dears is one of the casualties of poverty. 

Most divorces are over money. Its sad. But it is what it is. I love him. I hope that he loves me the way that he says he does. But who knows.